Adventures in Nowhere

Well I guess Ive changed a bit. Im no longer into that black on black fashion crime that blends grunge and goth. Im going back to my roots and showing my geek side thats stuck in  the 90s. Its all relitive though. Im still the same Staci you all claim to know, and truely love. You do love me right?

Current Mood: sore
Current Music: none but the radio in my head

I had to go to the docter the otherday and I got some cat scans. I cant believe they accualy got me to stay still!

kai!: this is an enthustic confermation. It is used when Staci is happy.

'kay: this is a less then enthustic confermation. It is used offten biggrudiongly and often shows that Staci is not happy.

SHITFUCKYA! this is used to show that it is deffintaly correct. Used enthustiasticly and spoken very fast. and often high pitched.

hellsya! this is exited and may show that staci Realy realy wants to do something

Damn strieght! all laws point to that is correct or something Im sure its not hard to figure this out.

Im slacking. So sue me. If it wasnt for Aaron I wouldnt even have made one of these. You owe me boy. Well not realy this experiance hasnt been all bad. And has proved some high lights. But any way things have changed again.

Saturday my room was invaded by little girls. They cleaned it but I still hear the echos of giggles with in. WHo are these strange creaturs you implore? Well two were the daughters of my older sister Erika the third a friend of my nieces by the name of Erica. My niece Kystie is 12 years old and is a compleat premadona. She seems to think she needs a phone. She also thinks she is a ghetto black girl. I was ready to stick a fork in my ear just to ease the pain of her insesent scheeches of how her favorite rappers were sooooooooo hot and talented and sexy to boot tehe! Shes realy angsty for her age. Stupid craker. Her friend was Erica. Shes started off shy and quiet. but then she started talking. This talking was rapid fire non stop. She didnt start talking untill it was bed time and her kyrstie My sister and I were all sleeping in my room. Sweet kid. looks like that one chick on full house. ...You know that annoying friend. Breanna is a sweet girl. Shes one of my favorite realitives. Shes realy smart to, and thinks of others alot. Shes such a ham and it comes off as kind a cute. She learned all her attion whoring from me. I taught her well. After an strained family dinner where I wanted to kill them all-exept bre bre and Erica( i just didnt know she was such a talker at the time) I dont know where Big sister erika Gets off being such a bitch. I have no clue of why she has to taunt me to much. I left the dinner table in tears. But they dont know that. On sunday I was happy they all left. I was left alone with only my parents. Good I guess. Monday they started fighting. Sleeping in sepperate rooms so now i dont get the sweet hook up in the other room. Damn it. Im got hooked on and got over an addiction to Ragnarok. And my time has been basicly dealing with my parents stupid fights. My mom is whining like a child and I cant take much more of this crap. well heres to tommorow being better.

 untill latter se la vi

~Staci

I woke up today thinking it would be a great day, but my clear sky of happiness lied to me again. Once again I was pitted against my family and I’m realizing that maby I do hate my older brother. How can someone be so selfish, crude, rude, and common decency? If he wants he wants it he takes it with out concern for any one else. He is a brute, an ogre, and a tyrant. This sounds trivial I know but he’s always insulting me and calls me demeaning things. He real is a jerk. I insulted him back but my heavy words are yet to get through his thick skull as he has a very narrow vocabulary. My brother is just one dark stormy cloud, but he with the rest of my family is growing together to be a tempestuous sky. My mom is acting relay neurotic. Like a bad omen she is the blanket of clouds before a rain. She is insufferable and there is no escaping her. The Hospitals won't accept her for drug rehabilitation for abuse of prescription painkillers. So she won’t be going away for a while. This abuse has been long on as long as I can remember. As A child I would her yelling a then latter encounter pills scattered along the floor. She is in ill humor with her withdraws. She is in no mood for me. Once again my sister denies me. When she’s alone she may be friendly and conversational, but when any one else is around she shuns me and becomes a blustery bitch like the North wind. She puts me down and makes me look like a fool to make her look better. But once I wish to make her the fool to give her the anguish she has caused. This Jester can no longer go unpunished; She will suffer the reproductions of the injuries I had borne. I care not of bad Karma inflicted as I find a way to make her suffer. No longer shall I suffer at the hands of this Fortunato. My dad is a man of good sorts. In my life He is comparable to a delicate ray of sunshine. But the clouds of the others by nature force him out. It hasn’t always been enjoyable, alas; even the minutest of rays can burn. And he can become a jagged bolt of lightning. I haven’t taken pain of the flesh though. Its just he expects so much of me. I am his first begotten daughter and his only one that has half a chance at success. I don’t particularly want the success he wants for me. A doctor? A lawyer? A C.E.O.? Something that involves office work? To work in an office is to sell your self of to slavery. In a cage locked away from the world and all you once loved never again to see the warmth of day, or to feel the cool wind brushing against your face and the cool grass beneath your feet, you await your destiny ensnared by three walls of cardboard and a 4th of your shattered dreams of what could have been. Here you rot; you are blinded by your dream of financial security unable to notice your freewill had decayed. Trapped you are unable to escape the monotony of a job you hate until one solution comes to you. You lay there hung up by you casual dress Friday tie. You just become another statistic, like the ones you wasted your life entering. The onslaught of impending rain is inevitable.

Current Mood: discontent
Current Music: Apocaltica-nothing eles Maters

Wow I haven’t done this in a while. Didn’t think I forgot did you? Well Nothing Major happened other then the trip to the beach. I guess that’s the focus for this post. I was in Pismo for 5 days. The weather was perfect. I wish I had enjoyed it more. I wasted it Hidden in my black trench coat. A bunch of people thought I was a member of the Trench coat Mafia, A witch, A vampire hunter, gothic, A cultist, or a ghost. This further made me think people were stupid. Im not sure why But they seem to have no inabition about asking me stupid questions. I blew 30 bucks in the arcade. They had Tekken III and Revolution X. How could I resist? I’m sure some one has to remember that game where you shot the soldiers and tribes men dead with CDs To fight the New Wave while all the while taking instructions from Aerosmith. My favorite level is the Middle East one where you have to save the innocents from reprogramming by shooting the hell out of the bus. Good times. In Tekken which I hadn’t played in ages, I brought Eddy’s stats up from the worst to the best. I’m A big fan of fighting games. Must be my high levels of violence. I managed to spend very little time with my parents. I always took JO of to a misadventure. She’s a killjoy and an elitist. She also sucks at being second player. Fourth of July. Happy late Splody day. I had to hold down the fort we made on the beach so we would have prime spots on the beach for the fireworks show. So I spent from 130 out there till, shoot we were there until 11:30 dad and I burning the wood away. We had a cooler, blanket, chairs, portable Fire Pit, Two dogs, and Ghetto Blaster Jam Box, and enough cold ones for every one. My Tia Gloria Uncle Don (he’s white so he’s not a tio) mi Prima Karina and her friend came at about 7. My parents had to go to the hospital because my mom had a panic attack. So I was stuck on the beach for several hours alone while Jo went and watched Dogma. That Bitch. Well I ended up holding down the whole hill as every one was all "hey watch my stuff" During my lonely time I ended up drawing the beach and a grove of trees in my now ruined sketchpad. The show was great but we should have been on the other side of the pier because there the thunderous explosions of the Fire works would have owned us. Over there it can paralyze you. My dad And I hung out and to burn off the rest of the wood we had (fire was visible from the other side of the pier which was hella faraway). As I played with the glowsticks. I created a new artform that blends raving, Latin dance, and Martial arts, Its great Cardio. Then the security guy came and said he would have to lock the gates. He helped my dad and I move the stuff back. Such a gentleman. I had the fealing he had a thing for me after I saw him with a lost dog when I tried to call Aaron the night before but the silly goose wasn’t home. Then some people from another campsite also from Bakersfield (every one in Pismo coast village is from Fresno or Bakersfield it seams.) Talked to my dad and me. We ended up hanging out in our site with our portable fire thingy. I met a minor celebrity. Urma (Thelman?) from the newscaster from the Local Mexican News. She’s also a fan of the Mexican rock band Mana. We all talked about my mad glowstinging skills and how it would have been cooler if you didn’t here me occasionally saying “ow”, swapped Mexican anecdotes (and the being the white one in the family).I went to bed about 4 am. Good times. We then went home and Great my now my brothers been added to the equation. He’s going to bee here a while. This makes 7 people staying at our house plus Chad who drops in Now that Lando is back. –sigh- there goes my peace,

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Current Mood: amused
Current Music: DJ Aligator Project "The Whistle Song"

Great the wiener dog is in heat. Why the hell have my parents not got her fixed? Shes realy being annoying. Well She has these embarising doggy pantys on when shes inside the hous.This keeps her from staining stuff. The new pair looks like blue little boy underwear. The old one was like pink/white checkered ruffeled hotpants. I wouldnt claim my dog when she wore that. Im sorry but damn. Dogs are not suposed to where pants!
I hate when this happens

Why is my family so odd. Heres a little scean that happened a bit ago. Stuff like this is fairly typical

Staci: (enters the living room where her father is sitting on the floor tinkering with an unknown cpu splayed across the floor. She wraps her arms around his shoulders) Whatcha workin on pop?
DAd: this thing, why are you dressed like that?
Staci:(wardrobe check: blue denim overalls red shirt pair of clean chucks hair pulled back in a high pony tail with hair down lip gloss, this is in high contrast to the usale black pants with tons of pockets and reaches to mid-calf worn with a a pair of well worn combat boots a black shirt with some form of sleaves worn under it hair down, dark eye make up. ):ummm What do you mean?
Dad:you look normal
Staci:(stands up) Gee thanks dad. Thats realy nice to say.
Dad: not that its a bad thing... Where are you going
Staci:(strieght faced) Dont know Im meating up with Jimmy at an undisclosed location, where I must blend in to infultrate a computers data banks and destroy all data on my existance. Once I do that I then will Return to my regualy scedualed lessons in Assasination untill Im good enough to take a hit on The govenator. This will be hard as the Mansion is heavley gaurded by brainless thugs. At this point I will Draw on My powers and skills of I have aqquired being the only Pyro ninjetsurinna.
I then will slip cyanide into his afternoon tea and excape only to find the princess is in anoter tower. I take my allie Boo the miniture giant space hampster on a european vacation.
Dad: right....what do you want.
Staci: I dont know.... Can I have a dollar?
Dad:(Takes out billfold hands staci money)this Better get rid of you...Do you even know a Jimmy?
Staci: that is classifiyed infromation
Dad: Whats the dollar for
Staci: this Idontknow....But it was yours(steightens dolar) but now its not
Dad:(plucks dolar from Staci's hands) Mine
Staci: awww(punches dad in arm takes dolar when he is confused and runs into bathroom locking door hides out for a while)
Dad:(returns to work)
Staci: (cautiously exits the bathroom and sits at the computer)
Dad: you droped the dollar. I put a claim on it and its mine nay nay nay
Staci: swears
Dad: Stares....

Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: Dj Aligator Project- The Whistle Song

I like swords!

Note to self: mother is not happy when I am up before dawn. I have run out of silent things to do.

Current Mood: awake
Current Music: Guns N Roses-Knocking on Heavens Door

There was a short 15 minuit time when my mom was talking to the "back there receptionist trying to figure out what the orders said" I was staring at my x-rays on the wall. Dija guys brests showed on those? Thats cool. Then Some guy who worked there was all "man X-rays are cool, look at the rack on that one" Then i was all like "...umm those are me X-rays." He got all red al blushed.looked at my chest and said sorry, walked away realy embaresed.

Well as Ive been hacking up a lung for three weeks now My folks are realy worried. Mostly over the fact that I wake up with a Realy loud fit 3,4,and 5 pm every night. This realy does hinder there sleeping as it is a realy bad cough. So I went to the docter again.
Last time some chick was all..Oh yeah take the same things youve been talking you rebelous little raggamuffin teenager. i want you to go see A Specialist dontchya know.
So that was last week and my parents are fed up with the Hacking. so Today My mom was so distruaght they let me come right on in.
So I went there and I waited. And I waited more. The reception room was full of boreing old people with no good storrys and an uneasy glare. The next room over was full of talkitive friendly people and people in my simuilare age groupwere along with A man in a clown suit with a bandage on his head to stop the hemmoraging. This was intressting but I was not allowed to go to that waiting room, because I was a walk in and I could be called in any momment. So I waited and waited, And i watched the golden girls. An antiant relic thought it was very amusing and showed this with an emphsimaic crackle. This would be quite simmilure to my coughing-very annoying. Durring a constant onslaught of coughing people desided it was best to avoid me like the pluege. An old hippy man did offer me a word avice-lay of the token so much the first time. This was met by a stare that was met by a chuckle.
MY mom is scedualing an apointmetn for my father via cell phone. They finaly call me. This is fine as Golden Girls is over and I was rather tired of geriatric sexual fustration. So on I went through the door into the mystical lambrith that is "back there" with out my mother because frankly I hate sitting in that steril white room with my mother becase she naggs-lot. so they way me messure my height and took my blood pressure and temprature. Then Im in the room alone with nothing to do and no mother to tell me "no". So I messed with everything.
Now why do they call you back so you can wait more? I have yet to figure this out so I desided to see how many cotten swabs I could fit in my mouth.(alot) I hate the fealing of cotten in my mouth it rubbs against the teeth and not in a good way. I eventualy spit them out and deside to lay on the bed and toss the pen I had at the celing and see if it would stick. It did. then I had nothing to do. I desided to find as many new view points in the room as I could. I was laying on the bed in a strange room wating for some strange man to come in which goes against something I was probly instructed against as a child. So I desided to lay on the bed in the reveres way
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A nurse showed my mom the way in eventual and why I was laying that way was had to explain but then we waited for a longer time. I the switched position to like i was laying in a phychatrists office. I then drilled my mom on politics. She has no view on politics other then "i dont know" She soon became angry and I waited in ackward siclence.
The docter finaly came.
he intoroduced himself then got a call on his cell phone and he answered it! How un professional is that! Im still miffed about that. After Mr chatterbox was done mother answered all his questions and then Listened to me breath. The way he was going on You would have thought i was a neglect case. e prescribe medicen up the ass (6 freaken prescriptions!) but took me off the evil one that will not alow me to have caffine. (yeah!) He ordered a sinius and chest x-ray, blood work and a spittle test and a cat scan.
THe radograffer came to take x-rays of my chest. One of the Front and one of a side view. with my arms up so they could see what was the deal in my lungs. I asked him about getting me coppys. and he said he could get them done next time im in (sweetness! theres something to put on my wall!)then he lead me back to the room. He came back latter to say They just told him to give me head shots. I then had a flash back of freshmen year in photo class 1st period with Joshia and Steve... Xerozing or heads and any other random body part cause it was fun. So in one of the x rays im smliling. Then i went back
Next on the aggenda was a shot. A young man in his eaily 20s came with a big an amused grin on his face. The ordeal went down like this
Nurse: *knocks twice on the still open door*StaciaAnn
Staci: YO!
Nurse: im here to give you a shot
ME: sure thing, *Pulls up sleave taps arm like a haroine adict then smiles.*
Nurse:*laughs*... its not on the arm
ME: *laughs* your funny stop joshing me dawg
Nurse: naw dog Im for real.
Me:(Crest fallen) say wha?
Nurse:I can go get a female if you want
Me: Naw dog its cool but wheres that shot goinna be if it aint in the arm
Nurse: i can go bet a female, but yo i need you to lower your pants. its in the hip
ME: SHIT! MAN WHAT! nah your foolin.
Nurse: no I Can get a ladie if you want
ME: will it still be in the ass?
Nurse: yeah
ME: fuck!
Mother:(glares)
ME: *unbuttons pants*
so I stand there draws half dawn as i get a shot in the hip. I think that was a bit lower then hip...
Of to blood work! mother and I get lost in the lambrith in the lab. She fills out papper work. After that they enclose me in high chair like thing. I hold up my hopes for strained peas. Nope blood. A man ties of my left arm but cant find the vain. Then Ties of the right as i squeel. He reasured me it was alright and it would only poke a bit. As it went in it didnt hurt to much. I remembered all the football players who passed out watching there blood. I think it was cool. I was tempted to drink the blood. he took 8 vials yo. Then I had to hawk a lugie in a cup.
I left then with impaired equallibriam. I kept vering off to the left.

that was my day basicly,
se la ve!

staci speak for today
Ubb up ubb! not now dont inturup stop proving me wrong!

nothing much is going on. Im pretty bored right now. Well every ones asleep, Well jojo and Mom Isic and Adre are gone for the weekend and dads at work. Ive been up science 7. I desided It is time fore a wake up call. Im playing knocking on Heavens door realy loud.
so I have been considering a new advertising campaine.Ill post some ideas latter